A LATE HOLIDAY TEA ENTRY AND A FINAL F*** YOU FROM 2018

I realized this morning that I forgot to post this review of the last of my holiday teas. It’s Celestial Seasonings Cranberry Vanilla Wonderland. Caffeine Free! I was so excited by this one. I love cranberries! The aroma was a perfect combination of cranberry and vanilla. I couldn’t wait to taste it.

Now for the not so good news. It has Stevia in it. I kept tasting a bitter taste that just reminded me of chemicals, so I looked and sure enough it had this sweetener in it. With Crohn’s I am not able to eat any type of sweetener except honey. So it was a really great idea, but why put the sweetener in? Oh well.

So today is a tale I would rather not be telling but I need feedback, I need support and I thank my beautiful friend Cynthia for keeping me sane this past few days! She is the most supportive person I have ever met. She even offered to get in her truck and come up to us. I love her for that.

On December 30,  the year decided to give us one more F*** You!  We have been waiting on the results of tests Tommy (the hubby) had done for the tumors on his leg. We figured the one by his hip was just a fatty tumor, but even with our copy of the DVD of the MRI, we couldn’t tell what the other two were. So ‘Ting’ went his phone and it was a notice that results had been dropped in his patient portal. Hello, Dr. E has sent his findings to your surgeon Dr. C. Findings? Malignant neoplasm of connective and soft tissue of left leg and hip. Boom!  And just like that our world started spinning. The Anxiety Fairy brought a few friends even. And of course every doctor was out-of-town until the 3rd. Needless to say the past few days have been horrid. Lots of sobbing, anger and railing at the world about the unfairness of the situation.

The man isn’t even 40 for crying out loud and he has already had a double by-pass and 4 stents and numerous other heart issues. The last one they told me they couldn’t do any more. Things are all scribbly in there and they just can’t. Now he has never had high cholesterol, it’s all genetic. And now this. He is the kindest man you will ever meet and I am still so mad I want to hit someone until they hurt as bad as I do. ( Steel Magnolias.)

This morning he called his Cardiologist, Dr. H. Now that man is on the ball. We have an appointment on Friday. By then he will have all the scan and MRI results and one of his colleagues is an Oncologist right next door and he will walk us straight there if necessary. So our stress went down to a 20.

It’s always nice to begin a new year with a new project. Mine being a lot of research and also trying to figure out how we got mixed up so badly that now everytime I google anything it pops up on his phone! This can not happen. No one should see my browser history. Ever.  So that’s our news. I hope yours is better. Thanks for listening to my garbled mess of a post. And thanks for being a friend.

xx Patricia

35 thoughts on “A LATE HOLIDAY TEA ENTRY AND A FINAL F*** YOU FROM 2018

  1. Deborah the Closet Monster says:

    I share your frustration with sweeteners added to thinks that (I) don’t (think) need it. I react to virtually everything, so I’ve had to toss out some tea and miscellany even with my usual vigilance buying new products.

    As to the rest? I’m so sorry, and rooting for y’all. ♥

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  2. Garfield Hug says:

    I am praying hard that all goes well. I am sorry for you to end 2018 with this awful news. I believe that the kindness and goodness of you and your husband will overcome cancer and that he will receive treatment well and recover. Blessings💕🌹

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  3. susandyer1962 says:

    Oh no! Patricia I’m sending up prayers for you all right now. Please stay calm or try to anyway until you all talk to the dr. You know what stress can do… I’m so sorry I dont have better advice but just know I’m here praying for you all 💕

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