The Crohn’s Fairy brings the Anxiety Fairy to Tea.

Good Thursday Morning Y’all! Yes, I’m here. Again. While I love my book blog, it is mostly for work and I don’t feel as comfortable writing personal things there. Here, I don’t need a filter.

So, what’s been going on? Well not only did the Crohn’s Fairy pop by but she brought her nasty sister, the Anxiety Fairy. They go hand in hand. Last Monday I had a doctor’s appointment and was told if I lost another pound I would be in the hospital with a feeding tube. Since my last year-long flare when I looked like a malnourished child, I’ve been vigilant about my diet, exercise, and stress management. Running is my drug of choice and it helps stress and makes me feel strong. But little did I know that there was a bomb ticking somewhere else that would impact my health in a big way.

Someone I have loved and respected for a lot of years suddenly called me on the phone and proceeded to verbally attack me over something I had not done. I didn’t even understand what she was talking about and I’m not sure she did either. OU Boy heard the call and was in shock. Was she on drugs? Having a mental breakdown? WTF?

And just like that, I can’t eat. My anxiety is at level 10 and that one pound went quickly. My main goal was to be able to make it to the book festival with Scott Pelley. I did that and came straight home and couldn’t move for days. Crohn’s flares leave you unable to even lift your arm, much less eat.

What happened? I said, Screw this shit, this bitch isn’t worth dying for! So I ran. And ran and felt better and ate broth and drank copious amounts of herbal teas. And blocked her on every outlet I have. Sure, words are free, but the way you use them will cost you. I thought it would be so much more difficult than it was to just chop off the toxic crap, but it wasn’t at all. Much like Trump said yesterday, that to him Pelosi was no longer the speaker of the house, I said, you are no longer in my world.

This morning I brought all the Fall teas to the front of the cabinet, even though it was in the 90’s yesterday. And every night it rains so it’s humid and hot. It makes it hard to get in the Fall mood. But my that Vermont Maple herbal tea this morning made me want to wear boots.

Thanks for listening!

xxP

24 thoughts on “The Crohn’s Fairy brings the Anxiety Fairy to Tea.

  1. Anna | Yes, Little Hummingbird? says:

    I don’t know if this will help you or not because I don’t have Crohns. But I do have severe problems eating. What I found that helped me eat even in the middle of flares that have me vomiting up any minute bit of solid food I eat, is baby food!

    We have a really weird aversion to baby food as adults. But lemme tell you: It is a life saver- quite literally for me; I was in a similar situation where my doctor was really worried about the amount of weight I was losing so rapidly. My Husband forced me to buy babyfood and now I’ve been able to maintain my weight even during flares.

    It takes quite a lot of food to actually eat- and I don’t know if I’d necessarily consider it a “cheap” option because of that. But something’s definitely better than nothing if you can manage it.

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  2. Christi says:

    I’m not “liking” this for the health news, just for the writing – you get that, right? 😉
    One thing about moving to MN, I’m finally experience real falls. Even wearing boots in September!
    Of course, on flip side in a couple months we’ll probably be below zero, so….

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  3. Kate Crimmins says:

    I don’t have Crohn’s but I do have IBS-D so I get it. Mine certainly isn’t as serious as your condition but I know the triggers. Wrong food or if something you thought was ok to eat turns out to have a pound of butter in it. The worst thing is stress because I don’t care what anybody says, it’s hard to control. We’re people. We have feelings and we worry and stuff happens. Stress can make me housebound for a week or two easily. Hope you are on the mend. Being able to run is great. Sometimes that’s exhausting!

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