Sunday Kisses…and Cupcakes!

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Hope you are all enjoying your Sunday! It’s great weather today, but this is Oklahoma and that could change in a second. This being a long weekend for Memorial Day on Monday I am enjoying all the sunshine I can get!

Sunday just seems like a Pink day…a bit fancy and not ordinary. I even cooked salad today! No burnt pots or scorched fingers. Just spinach, strawberries, sliced almonds, dried cranberries and some Feta cheese. And since it is so hot out I used Tazo English Breakfast Tea and made a big pitcher and then filled it with cut up oranges. Delish!

Since it is officially summer here, the work schedule has changed to 5 a.m. until 2:30 p.m. and it is completely messing my sleep schedule up. But I will adjust. Eventually.

Wishing you all a lovely Sunday evening full of Tea and Cuppycakes!

salad1   xx Patricia

Speak The Truth…Even If Your Voice Shakes

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It’s Friday for most of you but just Tuesday in my world. This morning I am sipping  chugging down multiple cups of tea with lemon and honey. With summer comes allergies and air conditioning. Both cause me misery. Thank goodness for Bigelow’s Lemon tea!

This week I had therapy per usual.  Normally he gives me enough forms to last a week and I fill one out each time I feel anxious or a panic attack. Writing where I was, what I was doing and how I dealt with it. Last week I only had one paper. And it was the day of my Eye surgeon appointment, so totally reasonable to feel anxious and scared. Then I told him about going out to several social occasions and that I was calm and in control the entire week. Without meds.

In his words, “That was very courageous of you. You were scared and anxious but you did it anyway.”

I had never thought of myself as courageous. I saved that for people who did big things like running into burning buildings. But when you have anxiety/depression sometimes just getting out of bed, brushing your teeth and getting dressed is courageous. Putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward sometimes takes Courage. 

It takes Courage to say out loud, “Hey, I’m not okay with this situation.”  It takes Courage to say, ” I suffer from PTSD and some days it sucks just to be!

Those are the times I jump on here and see how the rest of my people are handling their spoons for the day! And almost always I feel better. So thanks for that!

I hope your Friday is peaceful and that you find Courage!

xx IMG_20170422_080324_185  Patricia/WarriorPirate

Drinking Tea and Reading Books

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That is about all we can do here at the moment. Power is sketchy this morning. We’ve already had two more storms  roll through and now the sun is shining but I hear we are gearing up for later this afternoon.

When the patio furniture started flying through the air, it got real around here! The winds were from 50 to over 90 mph. Here we were trying to catch the chairs and drag them inside, along with all the newly potted herbs. The rest of the night was spent trying to figure out if someone was at the door or was it just the wind.

Poor OU Boy took a tumble off a ladder yesterday as well. Cracked his head and a rib. So he was going to be of no assistance whatever if one of those tornadoes decided to hit. At some point the weather guys got so amped up I twitter offered a Xanax.

Since power is about as dependable as Twitter is today I will just say Stay Safe! And make sure you have on clean underwear.

xx Patricia 20170419_135150~4

A Multiple Cups of Tea Day!

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Hope you are all having a somewhat sane Wednesday. After yesterday and last night things were a bit dicey this morning. Whenever we hear David Payne interrupt our day with words like; Supercell, Cloud Wall, lowering, rotation and PDS ( pretty dangerous storms) you just know you aren’t going to be able to watch the final NCIS!

Here in Oklahoma, the weather guys take over the channels at the first hint of a storm crossing the border from Texas. They were so hyped up last night that at one point our weather guy said, ” NO, don’t follow that one, it’s going into Kansas, we don’t care about them”, chase the one to the west. It isn’t like it’s a big secret that we don’t care for Kansas. Why is Oklahoma so windy? Because Kansas sucks and Texas blows. Not my joke but you see it a lot.

This morning we are all praying for our fellow humans in Elk City, which was just trashed last night with one fatality. Tomorrow will also be a Significant Weather Event day. Fingers Crossed!

Eye Doctor update: Doctor #1 said Wow looks great, I think we’ll take out one of the sutures. As soon as he left the room I looked over at the tech and said, “Now Dr. Davis is going to come in and bring me back to earth”. Which is what happened. Nope no sutures coming out. No sign of rejection either. I told him I had named the graft Dru and he actually wrote it in  my chart. ( Call graft Dru). Same restrictions as before.

Anxiety almost won the day today and yesterday, but it didn’t. I didn’t kill anyone, or have a full blown panic attack, so that’s a win!

OH, and Cynthia, someone brought me a huge bag of Collards!!! We’re cooking outside tonight!

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Leaving My Anxiety Safety Zone…with a Cupcake!

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It’s that time again..Time to grab a cup and a treat! It may be Thursday for most people but it’s my Monday. After the thunderstorms we had last night I wasn’t feeling hopeful for today’s plans, but to my surprise we have a severe thunderstorm warning and no one has told the sun! It is just beaming into the office like it hasn’t even listened to our esteemed weatherman.

My Memory of the Day on FB included our lovely Vangie with her Dora paper dolls so I had to share her smiling face with you all.

Our tea of the day is Matcha! Yummy and we are having a nice little biscuit with it.

So on to the tale…. Tuesday I went to my therapy appointment to discuss how I was dealing with the transplant thingy. I told him I had named it Dru. And that strange things had been happening in my house that I could not explain and how now I’m worried I’m doing things as Dru that I don’t remember. His response? ” Oh you mean like that Stephen King movie with the hand?” Yes. Does that make me crazy? No, it doesn’t apparently. It means you have a very active imagination. And you may need a new television set.

My going out of my safe zone anxiety is getting better. I still don’t like it but I can stay longer each time. My main concern is germs or getting bumped. I mean there are 16 stitches holding my graft on. So some of the anxiety is good, it makes me aware of any possible threats to the eye. But I have discovered I also use it as an excuse to get out of anything I don’t want to do. And that is what I’m working on this week.

laidback      xx Patricia