Speak The Truth…Even If Your Voice Shakes

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It’s Friday for most of you but just Tuesday in my world. This morning I am sipping  chugging down multiple cups of tea with lemon and honey. With summer comes allergies and air conditioning. Both cause me misery. Thank goodness for Bigelow’s Lemon tea!

This week I had therapy per usual.  Normally he gives me enough forms to last a week and I fill one out each time I feel anxious or a panic attack. Writing where I was, what I was doing and how I dealt with it. Last week I only had one paper. And it was the day of my Eye surgeon appointment, so totally reasonable to feel anxious and scared. Then I told him about going out to several social occasions and that I was calm and in control the entire week. Without meds.

In his words, “That was very courageous of you. You were scared and anxious but you did it anyway.”

I had never thought of myself as courageous. I saved that for people who did big things like running into burning buildings. But when you have anxiety/depression sometimes just getting out of bed, brushing your teeth and getting dressed is courageous. Putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward sometimes takes Courage. 

It takes Courage to say out loud, “Hey, I’m not okay with this situation.”  It takes Courage to say, ” I suffer from PTSD and some days it sucks just to be!

Those are the times I jump on here and see how the rest of my people are handling their spoons for the day! And almost always I feel better. So thanks for that!

I hope your Friday is peaceful and that you find Courage!

xx IMG_20170422_080324_185  Patricia/WarriorPirate

LEMON – BASIL BUTTER COOKIES

I promised I would share this one so here it is!Herb-scented shortbread cookie recipes (sage, lemon-thyme, rosemary, lemon-lime basil, lemon lavender):

The recipe makes about 6 dozen or so. Oven at 350 degrees for about 8 minutes. Very light golden color.

1 cup of fresh lemon-basil leaves ( If you can’t find the lemon-basil, just basil will do!)

13/4 cup of granulated sugar, divided

1 pound of butter, softened

1 Large egg

1/4 cup lemon juice

6 cups of All purpose Flour

Get your oven pre-heating to 350 degrees!  Grab your food processor and the basil with 1/4 cup of the sugar.

Beat the butter at medium with an electric mixer until creamy; gradually add remaining 1 1/2 cups of sugar, beating well. Add the lemon juice and egg, beat until blended.

Shape the dough into 1 inch balls and place about 2 inches apart on parchment lined baking sheets. Flatten slightly with bottom of  a glass, dipped in sugar.  Bake until light golden color. Cool and enjoy with a nice cup of Earl Grey Tea!

 

TEA AND CAKE..IN A TRUCK!?

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Yes, it seems that you can get just about anything these days from a truck, cart, or a VW bus. Flowers, coffee, tea, all types of cakes and sweet treats. I’m pretty sure that none of these sweet little things are here in the U.S. I wish they were. We do have some amazing food trucks, and not just Big Truck Tacos! If you haven’t been  to one of them then you are missing out on some really good Truck food.

One of our favorites is The Loaded Bowl! Organic, Vegan, GF, and really good comfort food! Cashew Mac and Cheese and the Down Home Bowl…oh yeah!

dOugh M G  is a vegetarian raw cookie dough truck! Try The Maverick! Peanut Butter goodness!

La Gumbo Ya Ya is a Cajun/Puerto Rican Fusion Truck. With Crawfish Boils and Blue Shell Crab Boils!  Yummy!

Wicked Hangry Burgers has every kind of burger and topping you can think of. My favorite is the Complainer…it has nothing on it!

The Sugar Shack Sweets & Treats has desserts and Carnival type food.

And there are so many more. Every weekend there is some event where they all show up and there is something for everyone!  What is your favorite Truck Food? What is mine? Well let’s just say I always know where Big Truck Tacos is going to be for the day…

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Good Morning Sunshines!

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Happy Sunday! WE are loving everything yellow today, especially that big fat sun overhead! Today is one of those days where I needed a major caffeine boost, but didn’t want coffee. No need to fear…Tazo Awake Breakfast Tea has an extra jolt of the good stuff. I don’t have much caffeine as a rule, but last night was a late one and it was that or the jumper cables.

I have no idea what came over me yesterday. It was like a protective shield where anxiety just could not reach. I went to 2 events outside of my house! Yes, I did. And without a keeper to hold my hand.

I met several interesting and nice people who should mean a fun and interesting summer for me! One older gentleman who explained all about harmony and not using the word try. Ever. I think he was probably at Woodstock.  Anyway it was very interesting and no one got shit faced drunk.  Win/Win! Although I did wake up with a killer headache and forgot to stir the honey in the bottom of my teacup and it was like a little bonus love at the bottom of the cup.

So now I’m taking my books and heading outside to bask in the sunshine and just be.

fairy:   Happy Sunday!   Patricia

Taking Advice From A Flamingo

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You should know by now that I have a serious love for the Flamingo. Miss Charli Ava found some flamingo jammies at Old Navy and I was very disappointed they were only in Toddler sizes.  I did find this lovely cake stand though.

Advice from a flamingo? It really is good advice for all of us!

Wade into Life.  Get out there and participate in life! You don’t have to jump in, just wade in as far as you are comfortable.

Stand Out in a Crowd. Do you. Be different. Fashion is fashion but style is forever!

Spend Time With Your Flock.  Your flock doesn’t have to be your family either. Hang with people who let you be yourself and just get you!

Find The Right Balance. Unless you are a professional juggler, which I am not, you need to find balance in your life. Work, play, reflect, learn. LIfe is a balancing act!

Show Your True Colors.  Be who you are and be true to your core values. If you are as nutty as a fruitcake, own that shit! If you love to sing, then sing. If you love to dance, then dance. Be true to what you believe in and you can bet you’ll find others who feel  the same!

Keep Your Beak Clean.  Basically keep it on your face and out of other people’s business. Don’t do bad things or hang with unsavory characters. As much as we may not like it we are judged by the company we keep. And remember, if someone is comfortable gossiping to you then you need to re-evaluate your squad.

Dont’ Be Afraid To Get Your Feet Wet.  Try new things! You don’t have to commit to a life long love of something, but you can’t have an opinion if you haven’t at least dipped a toe in. Well except drugs…keep your feet out of there. But you are all smart people and know that. Right?

Look how much we’ve learned from the gorgeous Flamingo!

This weekend is full of graduations, proms, and here:

A Very Gary Busey Gala

Oklahoma’s most talked about party is three weeks earlier this year! Come party with us on May 20th! Dead Center Film.   See you there tonight at 8!

xx Patricia

Drinking Tea and Reading Books

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That is about all we can do here at the moment. Power is sketchy this morning. We’ve already had two more storms  roll through and now the sun is shining but I hear we are gearing up for later this afternoon.

When the patio furniture started flying through the air, it got real around here! The winds were from 50 to over 90 mph. Here we were trying to catch the chairs and drag them inside, along with all the newly potted herbs. The rest of the night was spent trying to figure out if someone was at the door or was it just the wind.

Poor OU Boy took a tumble off a ladder yesterday as well. Cracked his head and a rib. So he was going to be of no assistance whatever if one of those tornadoes decided to hit. At some point the weather guys got so amped up I twitter offered a Xanax.

Since power is about as dependable as Twitter is today I will just say Stay Safe! And make sure you have on clean underwear.

xx Patricia 20170419_135150~4

A Multiple Cups of Tea Day!

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Hope you are all having a somewhat sane Wednesday. After yesterday and last night things were a bit dicey this morning. Whenever we hear David Payne interrupt our day with words like; Supercell, Cloud Wall, lowering, rotation and PDS ( pretty dangerous storms) you just know you aren’t going to be able to watch the final NCIS!

Here in Oklahoma, the weather guys take over the channels at the first hint of a storm crossing the border from Texas. They were so hyped up last night that at one point our weather guy said, ” NO, don’t follow that one, it’s going into Kansas, we don’t care about them”, chase the one to the west. It isn’t like it’s a big secret that we don’t care for Kansas. Why is Oklahoma so windy? Because Kansas sucks and Texas blows. Not my joke but you see it a lot.

This morning we are all praying for our fellow humans in Elk City, which was just trashed last night with one fatality. Tomorrow will also be a Significant Weather Event day. Fingers Crossed!

Eye Doctor update: Doctor #1 said Wow looks great, I think we’ll take out one of the sutures. As soon as he left the room I looked over at the tech and said, “Now Dr. Davis is going to come in and bring me back to earth”. Which is what happened. Nope no sutures coming out. No sign of rejection either. I told him I had named the graft Dru and he actually wrote it in  my chart. ( Call graft Dru). Same restrictions as before.

Anxiety almost won the day today and yesterday, but it didn’t. I didn’t kill anyone, or have a full blown panic attack, so that’s a win!

OH, and Cynthia, someone brought me a huge bag of Collards!!! We’re cooking outside tonight!

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Happy Mother’s Day MaMa! P.S. I Forgive You!

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So you think that’s an odd title? Well I am an odd character. Happy Mother’s Day to all of you people doing the mothering!

Yes, MaMa I forgive you for keeping on having daughters when you could have stopped as soon as you got it right. LIke May 5th! I don’t know why anyone would want 4 daughters. I’m surprised you got out of that with no brain damage! Or alcohol at the very least.

Thank you for teaching me to stand on my own two feet and never depend on anyone. Thank you for driving me to piano lessons, tennis lessons, and all the other lessons over the years. Thank you for teaching us manners and most important how to accessorize!

Even though we are far apart geographically I have appreciated your support for the past year when I was scared to death and you talked me through it. Try and have a margarita today for me!   I love you.

 

xx Patricia  bluebird

Leaving My Anxiety Safety Zone…with a Cupcake!

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It’s that time again..Time to grab a cup and a treat! It may be Thursday for most people but it’s my Monday. After the thunderstorms we had last night I wasn’t feeling hopeful for today’s plans, but to my surprise we have a severe thunderstorm warning and no one has told the sun! It is just beaming into the office like it hasn’t even listened to our esteemed weatherman.

My Memory of the Day on FB included our lovely Vangie with her Dora paper dolls so I had to share her smiling face with you all.

Our tea of the day is Matcha! Yummy and we are having a nice little biscuit with it.

So on to the tale…. Tuesday I went to my therapy appointment to discuss how I was dealing with the transplant thingy. I told him I had named it Dru. And that strange things had been happening in my house that I could not explain and how now I’m worried I’m doing things as Dru that I don’t remember. His response? ” Oh you mean like that Stephen King movie with the hand?” Yes. Does that make me crazy? No, it doesn’t apparently. It means you have a very active imagination. And you may need a new television set.

My going out of my safe zone anxiety is getting better. I still don’t like it but I can stay longer each time. My main concern is germs or getting bumped. I mean there are 16 stitches holding my graft on. So some of the anxiety is good, it makes me aware of any possible threats to the eye. But I have discovered I also use it as an excuse to get out of anything I don’t want to do. And that is what I’m working on this week.

laidback      xx Patricia

 

Release Day for Fern Michaels “The Godmothers Series. Spirited Away”

Part Two of the New Three-Part Godmothers Serial!

The best of friends, Toots, Ida, Mavis, and Sophie have been there for each other through thick and thin. Now Sophie needs the rest of the Godmothers to help her through something they’ve never faced before . . .
There are no secrets between best friends. At least, Teresa “Toots” Loudenberry has always believed that to be the case. In the decades since she, Sophie, Ida, and Mavis met in Catholic school, they’ve shared all the joys and hardships of their colorful, extraordinary adventures. But right now, Toots can tell that Sophie is hiding something.

Sophie wishes she could confide in Toots. But she can’t reveal her hunch about her home’s history and the unhappiness that still seems to linger there. There’s too much at stake, including the safety of Toots’ daughter Abby and her twin girls. But though Toots, Ida, and Mavis are all entering new phases in their lives—and love lives—they won’t let Sophie face this challenge on her own . . .

I was really excited about this new novella series. These women have been friends since 7th grade and they have had some adventures.

In this second book, they have all moved to Charleston,South Carolina and Sophie is hiding a secret from the others. But not for long. Toots is way too nosy for that!

Somewhere in Sophie’s new house is a spirit that looks like it is there to destroy the entire house. Bt Sophie knows there is a story here and she will get to the bottom of it with help from her friends.

Nobody does strong women better than Fern Michaels. For some reason I feel better about life in general after reading her stories!

Good Job with this one and can’t wait for the next!   This one is out May 9th so check it out!