Speak The Truth…Even If Your Voice Shakes

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It’s Friday for most of you but just Tuesday in my world. This morning I am sipping  chugging down multiple cups of tea with lemon and honey. With summer comes allergies and air conditioning. Both cause me misery. Thank goodness for Bigelow’s Lemon tea!

This week I had therapy per usual.  Normally he gives me enough forms to last a week and I fill one out each time I feel anxious or a panic attack. Writing where I was, what I was doing and how I dealt with it. Last week I only had one paper. And it was the day of my Eye surgeon appointment, so totally reasonable to feel anxious and scared. Then I told him about going out to several social occasions and that I was calm and in control the entire week. Without meds.

In his words, “That was very courageous of you. You were scared and anxious but you did it anyway.”

I had never thought of myself as courageous. I saved that for people who did big things like running into burning buildings. But when you have anxiety/depression sometimes just getting out of bed, brushing your teeth and getting dressed is courageous. Putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward sometimes takes Courage. 

It takes Courage to say out loud, “Hey, I’m not okay with this situation.”  It takes Courage to say, ” I suffer from PTSD and some days it sucks just to be!

Those are the times I jump on here and see how the rest of my people are handling their spoons for the day! And almost always I feel better. So thanks for that!

I hope your Friday is peaceful and that you find Courage!

xx IMG_20170422_080324_185  Patricia/WarriorPirate

Can We Just Ease into This Day?

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Seriously. I will never understand people that jump out of bed at the crack of dawn, jump in the shower, grab some coffee and put actual clothes on!  Nope, I will never understand that. I don’t like mornings or morning people. I’m like a feral cat in the morning. Don’t speak to me until I’ve had my morning cup. And even then you are taking your life into your own hands.I have a schedule for my days and if you mess it up first thing in the morning I’m stressed. Anxiety just  waiting for the perfect time to pounce.

I think everyone in my life understands that having no control over the eye transplant situation and surgery has made me a little bit controlling in other areas of my life.

To all of you morning people…Kudos to you. You keep the world running and I am Thankful and Grateful for all of you!

Happy Sunday….I am off to finish The Turn by Kim Harrison in the sunshine!!

xxPatricia

Rise And Shine Buttercup!

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Hope you are having a great Sunday! Talking Happiness today. What makes you happy on a Sunday? Heading out to church? Visiting with your family?  Are you someone who is just happy no matter the situation? One thing I have learned is that you can not make someone else happy. You’re either a happy person or you aren’t. Lord knows I’ve tried to drag people kicking and screaming into Happy Town. Just can’t be done.

I could be a lot of things and heaven knows I have days where my anxiety gets the upper hand like yesterday. I actually went to Target. Walked every single aisle. Thought I was going to lose it for a moment or two but I hung in there. When I got home I was pretty stressed but chose to focus on the fact that I saw a lot of pink sparkly things there and that I was happy about.

Even if it’s just a toe at first, step out of your comfort zone once and awhile. You can always pull it back in and call it exercise!

Loveand Tea!   xxP

No More Excuses…Maybe…

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While I have a great list of new cozy mysteries for you all, I can’t post them quite yet. So I’ll give you a Tale and a really good Tea recommendation as well! It’s Tazo Refresh Mint and it is really lovely!

Pretty much everyone knows I’ve been battling this blindness in  my left eye due to the infection from a contact lens. Since June 28, when I woke up blind and in pain, it has been a pain in my ass. Not literally, but you get it. For the first 3 months I couldn’t see anything and we were just focused on saving the eye. Well here we are almost 6 months later and my eye is healed. No more infection and as of today, no more meds. No more putting in 6 different drops every hour on the hour. I can go outside now. I have no pain now.

In January I will start the second leg of this journey by having 2 surgeries one right after the other. The first to remove the scar and the second, the corneal transplant. I have to admit I’m having a bit of concern over the transplant. I’ve had strange dreams about having other people’s body parts stuck onto my body. Stephen King type dreams.

Yesterday I was at my therapist office. The first time I’ve gone without sunglasses or the pirate patch, which I don’t need anymore, it’s just for fun now. So after 2 hours of me unloading on this poor guy, I asked him straight up, What was the first thing you noticed when I walked in? I was trying to judge how odd my eyeball looked but in a safe environment for me. His response? ” The first thing? Your boots.” I can’t tell you the relief I felt. So OU Boy and I went to the sandwich shop, again without my sunglasses. As we were picking up our order the girl behind the counter said, “Wow, I love your eyes”.

While I can look in the mirror 100 times a day,I still notice there is a slight difference, but now I know that other people just think one of my eyes is bluer than the other. After the surgeries they will be the same again. The point is now that I have feedback on the situation, I can no longer refuse to be social. And that sucks.  I would much rather stay on here with y’all and be entertained, educated, and just have some good conversations on tough topics, than go be social.

So today I have to do some soul searching and live in the real world instead of a book or here! Although I really don’t want to!

 

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A Cup of Earl Grey and A Tale

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Grab the teapot and make yourself some Earl Grey this afternoon! I’ll wait….

 

As you already know if you follow my book review site, www.piratepatty.wordpress.com, I have been struggling with an eye infection that turned bad in a big hurry. A 6mm glob on my eye that since June has been the focal point of my days. I am extremely lucky that I have the Dean McGee Eye Institute at my disposal.

But you can read all about it over on my other site. Being blind in one eye isn’t so bad when you’re a pirate. I had plenty of patches along with a rolling pirate ship from Toys R Us. Suffice it to say I missed all of Summer. My favorite time of year. I promised not to whine anymore about it, but Meh...

I live with Anxiety and PTSD. The kind where you’ve just seen way too much bad stuff and you would rather just stay in and avoid people and be in control. But at the moment I am not in control and that’s a first for me. So to calm myself I’ve started having an actual time for tea every afternoon. The entire process is calming and allows me to focus on just one thing.

Today I want to say Thank you!   To all of my fellow bloggers who keep me entertained and informed every day!  Luckily I am only blind in one eye so I can still read and write. And I do enjoy hearing from people from all over the world. I’ve learned so much about other cultures and countries so keep that up!  The other day one of my fellow bloggers reminded me we had been friends for a year! I have marriages that didn’t last that long! Just know that if you are here, it’s because I find you interesting!

 

Have a great Thursday and Be Kind to one another…share some tea! xxP

Death Among The Doilies (Cora Crafts Mystery#1) by Mollie Cox Bryan

Death Among the Doilies by Mollie Cox Bryan

From the Author of the Cumberland Creek Mystery Series, comes the first book in a new series.

Cozy Mystery Fans and Hobby and Craft readers are going to love Mollie Cox Bryan’s newest creation, the Cora Crafts Mysteries.

Cora has given so much of herself to the women’s shelter and fighting for abused women that even her doctor has advised her to find a less stressful life. When her best friend from childhood shows up at the shelter, Cora and Jane come up with an idea that just may heal them both.

Moving to Indigo Gap, North Carolina and buying a beautiful old Victorian home with a carriage house and a cottage,they intend to open a Craft Retreat. A place where women can gather and learn crafts and also heal.

Everything seems to be coming together for their first weekend retreat. Supplies are ready, food ordered and guest rooms are booked.

When the police show up to question Jane about a local murder it looks like they may open and close the same day! Cora needs this to be wrapped up quickly and the only way that is going to get done is by taking matters into her own hands. Along with Ruby, the herbalist who came with the property, and her son, they quickly get involved in some sleuthing and their suspect list just keeps getting longer.

Who would want a librarian dead? Who can be trusted and who is willing to kill again to make Cora stop her snooping?
There are plenty of motives and opportunities for murder and the characters were all unique and I wasn’t exactly sure who did it until the very end.

It was nice to see some of the Cumberland Creek characters make an appearance. That was tied together very nicely. The directions for all of the lovely crafts are in the back of the book, which I really enjoyed.

This is a series I would definitely recommend to friends! Release Date is August 30, 2016

*I received a copy of this book from Netgalley and Kensington Publishing in return for an honest review*

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

MOLLIE COX BRYAN, author of the Cora Crafts Mysteries and the Agatha Award-nominated Cumberland Creek mystery series, is also an award-winning journalist and poet.  She currently writes and crafts in the Shenandoah Valley of Virginia with her husband and two daughters. Please visit her at molliecoxbryan.com, where you can sign up for her exclusive newsletter. For scrapbooking, recipes, and other crafty-freebies, join her on Pinterest at pinterest.com/molliecoxbryan.