What a dismal Wednesday morning! Although the weather report says we will hit 57 today, it looks awfully dark out. Morning tea is the Turmeric Soothe again. Our tummies are still rumbly here. And I’m sure my attempt at cooking chicken (eww) didn’t help. Tommy said it tasted funny and thus began the great dash for the bathroom.
Last night I dreamed I was being held hostage by Somali pirates. As head of the Pirate Nation, I was confused, but happy to be on a beach. And then I woke up with the thought “What exactly do I NEED to do today?” What do I do just because it’s expected or just because it’s become a habit or routine? I am a creature of habit. I love lists and I get upset when my schedule is disrupted. Yes, I am a control freak. But I am trying not to be.
We can’t control everything. It’s not possible. So how do I find balance between the things I can control and the things I can’t? No clue! How do you do it? Well this morning I wrote a list. Of course. On one side were the things I have total control over and on the other side the things I have no control over. The second list was longer. I hung the first one on the refrigerator and I burned the other in the sink (okay it was a small cauldron).
Did I instantly feel better? Yes and No. With so much uncertainty in our lives, both personal and worldwide, it is hard not to just stick our head in the sand and wait it all out. It’s hard to wake up everyday and not look at the world through rose-colored glasses. Reality is hard!
Balance. That’s what I’m shooting for. Not work vs. home balance. Life balance. I’m going to ponder that today. With a good book in one hand and a cup of Earl Grey in the other. That’s a good start, right?
Enjoy your day!